SyafiqahNur

Dedicated to people around me, I apologize if I had indirectly hurting your feeling before, by my silences, my strictness, my sarcasm, my ego and my ignorance. Actually, I just want to be fair to myself. So that I am not being too sensitive, which later may bring me down into depression. In friendship, it is normal to have such feeling as long as not too much. Everyone has feeling right. So my principal is, before you said "I hurt your feeling", reflect back to yourself. Have you hurt my feeling?. So the conclusion is forgive me and stop being sensitive. Unless i bullied and abused you. Sometime I afraid that I will hurt other feeling. Everytime I accidentally hurt my friend feeling (like being not responding to them, being more hard, being more ego) actually myself is hurt also. I don't like  to be  like this, As I said before I just want to be fair to myself. It is not a revenge. This is only my defense mechanism. I love myself very m...

“Push yourself to become a person you're destined to be” Wow. This quote is so amazing. I love this quote very much. It made me realized that nothing is impossible. The chance is still there. Inside yourself. The choice is yours. What you need to do is just pushing yourself and moving forward toward your dream. Do everything you want to do. At least you have tried it and show the best version of you. I am the one who is very passionate about my dream and future. And now, I am halfway there. But, the journey is very challenging. It is not easy. I used to give up so many times. But I keep thinking that, this dream is not only mine. It is also my parent's. How can I give up easily after I dream it for years since my childhood. I just can't imagine. So, to regain my determination and positivity, I used to read quotes. Now, it has become my current hobby. I love to find and read new quotes that I can hold to. I will collect and keep them in a more proper way. Amazin...

Assalamualaikum semua. So today entry takde benda apa pun sekadar hanya luahan hati hoho. As i said in my previous entry, i will do my best in my study and for my family. Tapi, sekarang ni aku takut. Takut sangat2. Aku takut my future is not seperti yang diharapkan. Aku tau aku tak sepatutnya berfikiran sebegitu rupa. Seolah-olah aku menidakkan takdir tuhan. Sedangkan allah yang hold our future. Our takdir. Ya Allah ampunkan aku. aku jahat.  Aku manusia biasa. Aku lemah. Iman aku turun naik. Ya Allah ampunkan aku. Kenapa, kenapa, kenapa aku takut dengan benda yang tak pasti. Mungkin aku terlalu mengharapkan sesuatu itu menjadi mengikut perancangan aku. Niat aku dah salah. Sedangkan Allah sebaik-baik perancang. Allah tahu yang terbaik untuk aku. Percayalah wahai hati.  Aku rasa umur antara 18 hingga 30 adalah sangat mencabar. Aku perlu mula berfikir  tentang kehidupan yang sedang aku jalani atau akan aku tempuhi suatu hari nanti. Pre-adulthood life. ...